haters NOT welcomed.

so i had to delete a comment that was posted on one of my blogs regarding my summer. dont know who it was. mr or miss anonymous was too scared to reveal their identity yet, want to post hater comments on my blog. haha you people are stupid. i hate that our world is crowded of stupid fucks like you.

with that said. people can only post comments who are members of my blog.

Current mood: scornful

when you get a chance

listen to this song. i could repeat it over and over again. i love the way it makes me feel.
its called summerfish by leonid rudenko. scandall sunset remix or some ish. anyway its super ill!

listen here.

want you to know...

i checked postsecret today, of course procrastinating on studying. and i came across this.

i'm sorry if sometimes i make it seem like its not enough. its more than enough. i appreciate you so much.

follow up

Since i wrote a blog about Robin Thicke's new album, Something Else, i figured i'd follow up on the scoop. Listen here.
I gave it a few listens and I'm sad to say there wasn't a single song that stood out to me. With that said, the ones i favor more than the rest are the slower songs, The Sweetest Love, Ms. Harmony, and Cry No More. The Song Everybody's a Star is kinda catchy. Iono, i guess just check it out.

I did check out Raphael Saadiq's new album called, The Way I See It, and there's a sick song on it called Oh Girl featuring Jay-Z. Peep it.

Other than that I haven't had any great discoveries as far as music lately. I need something to blow me away. New music PLEASEEEEE!

My new toy

A hello kitty bong! How wonderful is that? I'm so excited about it. It hits so well! And it was made for me by my love, so it's really special to me. I LOVE IT!

Just kidding.

So apparently I am unable to post pictures from my iPhone. I viewed my blog on my laptop and the last two postings are missing their pictures. I'll try to fix that soon. And see how I can get it to work without having to go back and fix it everytime. There's such a convenience in being able to blog while on my phone. Maybe because there's too much on my computer to distract me... And it's also convenient cuz I can blog anywhere as my thoughts come to me instead of having to wait to get to a computer with Internet. By that time, I wouldve probably already forgotten what I had to say... Or after much more thought I realize it wasn't worth my time writing. But I like the idea of mobile blogging and blogging about random ish on impulse. So here it goes...

My summer

Since I have not written in my blog during the summer and have not written about my summer, I'd like to refresh my memories and look back at my summer. I want to say I grew the most this past summer and experienced much change internally as far as emotionally, spiritually, and religiously.

This picture of the Eiffel Tower twinkling and glowing in Paris is a good representation of my summer. Beautiful, grand, and epic.

To say the least, my summer was amazing and too short. Definitely one I'll never forget... Hate to be cliché but that's just the truth. Just a few highlights of this summer: me and my boyfriend became official and are extremely happy, I finally turned 21, I went on a religious pilgrimmage in France which was extremely rewarding, and I got to spend a lot of time with my family which I haven't been able to do since my last summer before college. Oh it was wonderful and I truly am blessed. I have to upload the pictures and share about my experiences one day. I have got to find the time to do that. It seems like time is flying... Summer has been over for over a month. It's almost november now... That's enough for today. More updates later.

Love to all, Bravebird.

P.S. See honey, bravebird loves to speak.

Futuristic fun

Check this neat looking gas station. I drove by it with my boyfriend somewhere in LA when we were on our way to Bossa Nova. It's like the gas station of the future. Or like the gas station from the Jetson's. Haha. It looked so cool that I had to pullover n snap a photo. I wish I needed gas, just to say I got gas there. I don't know if the gas prices were any different or if there was anything special about it or what the gas station was called. No clue. But hey, doesn't it look sick?!

Peace.

m.i.a.

it's been a while since i left a mark here. so i decided today would be the day. 

i havent slept yet. pulled an all nighter to "study" for this midterm i had this morning. i figured i'd wing it. so i leave for class on time, and even pretty early, which is a never occasion, so i have time to chill and smoke a stoge before i walk to class. that stoge was so relaxing! anyway, as i'm walking to class, i'm walking through this huge open space, and just my luck, a bird shits ON ME! it was super nasty. i hoped it didn't mean bad luck. I start trippin thinking I was going to fail my midterm. But once I get there, I'm still early so I have time to review. Once the test was passed out, I read it and saw that it wasn't as hard as I thought. Thank god! After I went home to kickback n chill. The boyfriend came n so did my homegirls. It was so relaxing n satisfying to just chill n mellow out with the ones I love after a stressful and tiring week. Anywho, I told everyone about my poop story. It was such good luck!

Cheers to my return. I set up mobile blogging on my iPhone. I'm excited. I get to post pictures now. Woo!

summer ahead.

so today is the first full day spent back at my parents house this summer. its been interesting to say the least. though i've dreaded moving back, the first day back, i'm having a good feeling about it.

after the long 7 hour drive of stupid detours and road construction around hwy 5, i arrived at home at 3am tuesday morning. i brought all my luggage into the house and went straight to the fridge.  

what kind of shit is that?

i know, i cant help it. i'm fat. it was a fuckin treasure chest tho i swear there were like 8 different filipino dishes plus 2 different kinds of desserts and some fuckin bbq. i was STOKED! haha 

i made me a plate and wandered the rest of the house just to check the scene. my dog cooper weirdly didnt wake up and come out to greet me. he must have been tired... along with both my parents cuz i made so much ruckus hoping they'd wake up but they were knocked out.

anyway, while my food is heating up, my next mission is to find my BED. my grandma had been living with my parents for a while so she had my room. whenever id visit on weekends, i would have to sleep in my brothers room with him, but she had left for the Philippines just a few days before my arrival, so i was taking my old room back. i went into the room expecting all her stuff to be there still but all her stuff was almost gone. i had to clear a few things but i made sure my bed was ready and made myself comfortable... before i went to sleep i told myself my project this week was to make the room MINE AGAIN.

i probably slept until 230pm knowing i had absolutely NOTHING to do the next day. it felt really good. i got up to greet my dad and brother and went back to bed. sweet! i chilled in bed til my mom called around 6 talking about plans to go OUT to eat, MY PICK! dude, could it get any better? we go to my fave sushi spot and mom tells me to order anything i want. i ordered at least 5 different items just because i always wanted to myself but knew i could never afford it without her. haha. spoiled brat! anyway after we order, all my mom wants to talk about is PLANS for summer. depsite all the money ive needed from her while not working, she doesnt mention me getting a job and is asking me where i want to go for the summer. shes trying to take like 50 vacation days off from work and wants to travel every weekend! shes willing to take me where ever i want to go and to give me the money to go where i want to go. 

i dont even want to take advantage. i dont even have a job, i dont feel like i deserve it. ever since i was 15, old enough to work with a government issued work permit, ive worked for everything i had. but the best part about our conversation over dinner was that my mom announced that shed pay for every concert that me and my brother want to go to this summer. she KNOWS how much we love going to concerts, so she said she'd pay for all of them. i'm mos def down for that!

YESSSSS! EDC TICKET IM COMING TO GET YOU TOMORROW!!! 

that also means ill be seeing john mayer and going to rock the bells. any other concerts? fuck it, im going. WOO! im fucking excited. i was planning to go to the philippines this summer to travel the beaches, but its the rainy season there til september so i think my brother and i are going to go to hawaii! its going to be fucking awesome. plus ill turning 21 in july so i've got vegas trips LINED up. YAY. im also excited for all of the family vacations my mom has planned. i love my mom. my family could not be so amazing without her. 

anyhow after dinner my brother and i share our music libraries and put each other "up on game" if you wanna say in our different favorite genres. this summer is also the summer i want to spend cleaning up all the titles in my music library plus expanding. gunna be a long summer, hope my tendonitis doesnt act up. 

finally, because getting a job isnt practical for all the vacations i want to go on, im just going to spend the summer working on my mom's house, kinda like working for her. shes so busy and no one helps her out around the house, its not that clean and its cluttery. my plan is to clean out all the junk, organize all their stuff, and literally repaint, redecorate, and organize every room. she already gave me the okay to spend for paint supplies, new furniture, new coffee tables, and all kinds of stuff. hooray, i also just decided to major in communications with a concentration on advertising and marketing. design school after to pursue my dream to be an interior decorator. sick, this summer i get to practice. 

then tonight, it was interesting trying to get fucked up with my brother at home. i think by the time summer ends, i'll be a pro at that. muahahahahhah! 

ive rambled enough, long story short. folks, things are looking up.

wishing happiness upon you all,

bravebird. 

i want 'something else'

robin thicke is coming out with a new album called 'something else.' AHHHHH! im so fuggin excited. i love robin thicke. he is an amazing artist with a soulful voice who consistently releases good tracks. his songs arent the type of songs that get played out either!! dont even lie, you know you can listen to 'wanna love you girl' or 'lost without you' all day everyday. 

anywho, his new single is called "magic." you should def peep it. 

if you're also not up on your robin thicke game, please check out the following tracks. they just  might be a sample of why i love him so much.

-you center me

-a beautiful world

-the stupid things

-superman

-i'm not loving you

-lil wayne's track, tie my hands off the carter 3

and the last song which brings me to my next point. the carter 3. def cop it. 

k thats enough for today. 

happy thursday all. 

obsession relapse. constant rehab.

so lately i've been noticing that i go through all these crazy phases where i super super super super hype some shit that i hella extra love. and ill be on that tip for a while and then after im on it so tough that i just play it out and im just OVER IT. hahah. literally i can almost apply it to anything im into or interested in. like food. ill be stuck on eating sushi for weeks straight, eating it like 5 times a week then being without it for a few months. i do this with everything, and with everything i mean: colors, foods, styles, accessories, objects, music, songs, scents, drinks, alcohol, and other substances.? haha.. im cycling in and out of phases of extreme like and extreme indifference. some phases come and go together, some come and leave before the next. something about complete binges of random shit all the time puts me in a constant rehab phase for a certain obsession. like when i was little i always loved sanrio, everything about it. and now im on the hello kitty hype that ive been fighting for so long. haha. obession relapse! rehab coming soon...

don't sleep.

on norah jones radio. seriously, pandora.com. dont sleep on it, but sleep to it. its quite amazing. the compilation of songs is perfect to say the least. type in any other artist or song, you can expect to get stuff thats real similar that you'll like, but chances are, you'll get a bunch of other stuff that's just not what you were looking for. with norah jones radio, you'll enjoy every song and anxiously await the next. 

figurative lyrics.

i gotta appreciate music first and foremost, but something about poetic lyrics gives music so much more power. we most often fall in love with songs that we consider the truth, and lately i've been diggin the alternative/folk/rock lyrics. unlike what some people may call "conscious hip-hop," alternative songs are much more than a set of truthful verses. the verses are deeper, using metaphors, rather than massive amounts of similes. Crazy that the truth can be described and interpreted in so many different ways, and appeal to others though they may not have experienced the same things. lyricists who convey their message so well and so beautifully, that everyone can share compassion over what they're feeling. what i mean is, its kinda funny how you can describe your emotions in a way that others who do not feel them with you, can. 

i love these lyrics and this song. its called "heavy" by holly brook. i feel her emotion, its so intense.

Now i've come to cry 
Shed your skin to rest my naked eye 
And criticize 
All that i implore 
Seems to be one foot outside that door 
Coming between me and waking 

Underneath the corset of your mystery 
Piece by piece undress you from your history 
I'm sleeping with seclusion in sweet disarray 

You can go heavy on me 
And i will not weigh you down, down, down 
You can be steady and clean 
I can take it 
Heavy on me 
And i will not weigh you down 

Born unto this pride 
Silence is something you can't hide 
You can't deny...us 
Nothing has been said 
Yet so many words have filled my head 
Now they completely surround me 

Tie the lines of honest conductivity 
Caught between the center of our gravity 
I don't have that much time to burn anymore

weekend debriefing.

so last thursday was the longest day in life. i slept at about 5am and then had to wake up at 9 for discussion and class at 11. BOO. so i had a midterm at 5. so i studied all day, killed my midterm, and after it was on and poppin. HELLO weekend! i picked up roslyn, we went home to get ready real quick, met up with dom and will and went out to the plaza to eat at Johnny's. those burgers were pretty bomb. we went to trader joes to find that aloe juice that we've all been hyped about all week. roslyn and i go hardcore to find that shit. korean aloe juice with the aloe pulp is the most amazing shit ever. its hella good for you AND hella good. it sounds off, but its totally amazing when you first taste it. anyWAY, we get home and start getting ready, the rest of the night crew comes and we started drinking. crown royal, how typical, everyone who knows about unit 102 knows we're all about it. thats our drink of choice. but we do our prepartying activities and leave the house just before midnight. we're rollin 5 girls deep, step into the party... and i dont even remember seeing most of the crew til we left the party at 4am. what the hell? i couldnt even believe we were out that long. roslyn and i killed some guys at beer pong, and dom and i aparrently were boo'd up for the night. HAHA. madonna and yosan, the time we spent at the party was minimal. i know ya'll had fun tho cuz as soon as we got to the spot ya'll were knocked on my couch. haha.

 anyhow. so roslyn and i wake up the next morning craving some milk! we head to mcdonalds cuz our lazy asses just wanna hit up the drive thru for the 99cent milk chugs. i head to class for a bit and then we meet up again to hit the mall. roslyn bought the whole mall and for once in my life, i practiced this thing i guess is called self control? i dunno, never done it before. but anyway, as soon as we get home i gotta get to gettin ready for the party to help the other girls get ready. everyone was stuntin' that night, lookin mighty fabulous. everyone was also really fucked up, too bad stupid cops broke up the party that hadnt even reached its full potential. shitty. the rest of the weekend was a blur, spent it intoxicating ourselves. kris and i threw down a huge dinner for the boys on saturday. sunday i spent in solitude til i drove to the valley. kicked it in shit, did more intoxicating and yeah, im waiting and studying til i gotta head back to riverside later. midterm tomorrow. BLAH. all good, ill knock it out. this thursday im going to SF. i already know, its going to be sickk.

sharing discoveries.

word of mouf. how convenient, sometimes. as recommended to me, pandora.com is a bomb ass music website. type in an artist, it finds artists and songs of the similar music type. its sick, good way to expand your music horizons. see for yourself.

www.pandora.com

happy listening,

bravebird. 

new direction.

so initially, i created this blog to write stuff that other people might find valuable, but ive decided that im going to post and write whatever, useful or not. 

enjoy!

confusion

feeling better about life and myself in general lately, i realize that my recent downfall was caused by confusion. aware of my strength as an individual, i still found myself weak and wondering because i was confused. confused because i had mistaken what i need with what i want. these are two very different things. 

there are very few cases in which what i need and what i want is all the same. 

for those closest to me, i think one of those is beyond obvious. ; ]

oops. teehee... not trying to give any hints.

with a sneer,

bravebird.

oh eight pledge.

dear new year, 

  i'm making a whole list of feasible resoultions instead of making one huge, over-the-top, impractical resoultion. all these resolutions will have one purpose -- to form habits which will in turn develop a lifestyle. this lifestyle will ensure that the resolutions listed become a part of this year, and the years to come. my resolutions of the past are almost always forgotten by the time spring rolls around, if not sooner. this lifestyle, these resolutions, are for improvement and i want to keep moving forward because the best is yet to come. 

1. Refuse to be lazy.

Lazy implies procrastination. You still have things to do, but are too lazy to do them. Being lazy is often confused with relaxation. Relaxation implies accomplishment. Relaxation is rewarded to those who are not lazy. Completing scheduled tasks such as chores, business/academic affairs, and self maintenance on a regular basis will save you more time in the long run. Letting tasks pile up in your mind not only increases the time to complete many tasks but it requires more effort and it can cause stress. Laziness creates stress. Pure relaxation is stress free, so get your shit done first. 

2. Keep your living space clean. 

Keep your room as clean as can be. Remove all clutter and throw away everything you haven't used, worn, seen, or remembered you still had. Tidy often. Tidying here and there lessens your cleaning efforts later on. When your environment is clean, you allow new positive energy to flow around you. 

3. Set the mood and welcome positive energy.

Keep scented candles lit. The pleasant fragrances have an amazing affect on mood. Try it, you'll know what I'm talking about. Your good mood will create an aura around you. It is a positive experience. Light a tea light candle before going to bed. It'll be out before morning without any harm and it is extremely relaxing. 

4. Spend time in solitude. 

Set some time alone everyday. No matter how busy your schedule, or what you need to do. Take at least thirty minutes to sit alone and do something that relaxes you. I would suggest having a cup of hot tea and reading a book while listening to some jazz, soul, or even classical music. I could reccommend you a whole list of artists, but try Etta James, Kenny G, Amel Larrieux, Norah Jones, Corrinne Bailey Rae, and Sade. Try writing or blogging. Clearing your mind is also a great form of relaxation. 

5. Remember your purpose.

Every morning, get up and start your day. Remind yourself of what you plan to do. Think about what you want to accomplish. Stick to it and at the end of the day before you go to bed, remember your purpose. You will sleep much better knowing you were productive and did what you had to do. Make this a ritual before you sleep and when you wake up.

6. Excercise your mind, body, and spirit.

Take time to do some leisure reading. As much as I hate reading, I've alloted a certain time in the day, mainly when I get in bed before i sleep at night, to read something I'm interested in. I keep a book in my purse and by my bed so I can read when there's downtime during the day. I like self help books. That's usually the section at the bookstore that I go to first. Seeing others' point of view of stuff that may be helpful for everyone is interesting. I sometimes even try to find time to put other people up on something I learned or I find valuable. You will also find it useful to write a reflection on what you've read. 

Some people find it hard to get to the gym on a regular basis during the week or  some do not have access to one so try doing a few exercises that doesn't require any equipment in the privacy of your own room. You may feel more comfortable and you can't say you don't have time to. You will find it refreshing to taking just ten minutes to stretch and do a few excercises regularly during the week. You will also find that you have more energy during the day. 

Lastly, pray often. 

7. Keep in touch.

No one wants to be lonely. Keep your friends close and make time to socialize. Pay a friend a visit or phone a good friend you haven't spoken to in a while. Take care of your friends, they will take care of you.

If you don't live at home with your parents, try to call them everyday. It makes them happy to know that you're thinking about them and want to talk or that you called just to check in. Your relationship with them will be healthier. Nothing is better than having a happy family. Not money, not status, not cars, not grades, not your career. Do what you have to do, but remember family first. They will be there for you, do not isolate or alienate yourself. Again, keep them close. My family keeps me sane. 

8. Maintain yourself.

Stay clean. Good hygiene is important and leaves impressions on those you encounter daily. You always want to leave a good impression. A cleanly face and a nice smile are pleasant. Wash your sheets weekly, keep up with your laundry, get a massage, keep your nails polished, shave often, get waxed as often as you should, put on some makeup, fix your hair, and get dressed at the start of each day. When you look good, you feel good. This creates confidence. Own your beauty and own your self-worth. It's attractive. 

9. Don't forget to smile. 

Everyone loves a person who smiles. A beautiful smile rejects any negative energy. A study has shown that people who smile are more inclined to laugh or find something funny. Humor is the best medicine. Carry a smile wherever you go. People will be attracted by your aura. You will meet more people and people will be inclined to speak to you even if they do not know you. Smiles attract positive encounters with people throughout the day. I know this to be true. Don't forget your manners. Greet everyone you come into contact with even if they seem like they're having a bad day. Though they may not respond in the way you'd expect, be content that you tried your best to stay positive. This is key to being personable. 

10. Enjoy yourself. 

Make time to have fun with friends. Go out, watch a movie, go bowling. Do things you and your friends enjoy together. Bonding with friends is a beautiful thing. Even if you are busy or too tired, try to find time once a week to get out and let loose a little, by doing whatever it is you like to do (cough cough, nudge nudge). After all, when with good company, you're guaranteed to have a good time and you won't regret it. 

11. Live in the moment. 

Cherish the day. The present is a gift. Carpe diem, "Seize the day." The list of cliches are endless. This resolution is self-explanatory. But here is a quote by Buddha, "The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly." Word. 

with hopes of a blessed year, 

bravebird.